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Welcome to my blog, where I share some things that have been happening in my life! It's ordered by date (recent appears at the top, oldest appears at the bottom).
Getting kicked out in July
Well, I definitely haven’t been keeping up with this blog- but damn do I have some hot juicy tea for you all.
I’ve recently made the decision that I’ll be leaving home in September in order to live in University student halls. My family have been aware of this for a while, and I’ve always been told that whatever I choose, I will be supported.
Now, some context is that I’m technically, but not legally, a child in care. I live with my Grandma under a court order which is somewhat financially supported by my local government. When I turn 18 later this month, the court order ends. However the local government has said that they will keep supporting that until July, when I finish college.
Yesterday, I told my Grandma about the decision I’ve made to stay in Uni halls and it was not taken well. For months she has been telling me that I’m incapable of living independently and that if I choose to leave in September, I won’t be allowed back.
I have been fine with that arrangement, and the chance that my disability money could end in September when I move to Uni. Equally, I have been told that there is a chance that I can keep receiving thet money. It’s a significant amount of money, but I have been sick and tired of living in an unaccepting household. Staying at home wouldn’t help my mental health or my studies, and I’ve been more and more sure about staying at Uni halls with every single time she tells me (and other people that) I’m incapable.
I was instead told that I would be getting kicked out in July when she stops getting money from the local government to look after me. That was quite the bombshell, considering I wouldn’t be able to move to or afford to move to Uni halls until September. I was then later told that she would be going out of her way to cancel the disability money that I recieve, because she thinks that I would lose it anyway and that she ‘doesn’t want to be responsible for it’.
Keep in mind that the disability money would have been enough to support me in carrying on living with her until September, and even after if I would be allowed to keep it.
So, I’m being kicked out for wanting to stay in Uni. Not really because she can’t financially responsible for me but more because she sees this as a massive “fuck you” to her instead of the opportunity to live independently to me.
I have nowhere I can really go, my Parents live separate. My Mother isn’t well and doesn’t live in the safest environment and my Father, though he lives in a safe and stable environment, living with him is out of the picture.
I’m figuring out my options with my local government, but nothing is promised. They have a certain responsibility for me, but again- nothing is promised.
My sister has been absolutely amazing and is supporting me, and we’re looking at cutting my Grandma’s access to my disability benefit. I think for now I’ll be fine, but the fact that nothing is set in stone and that I have no housing security between July and September, I’m very stressed out by it all.
Boing!! (and bonus college project)
Omg, Willow writing a blog post not in the middle of the night but actually at 10:25am?? Rare!
Anywho... Yesterday was quite the day. I went trampolining for the first time in years, and genuinely had a great time. It was just me and a few others my age messing around the entire time and it was tiring but very fun.
I've also started by college project! You can click here to complete a very short and anonymous questionnaire- doing it would help me out so much!!
Sleep is for the weak (I’m weak)
Aaaannnnddd… It’s currently 12:20am and I’m up writing this. Actually because someone said something that reminded me to do this. I don’t know how often I want to write on the blog, but I don’t think it really matters either.
My sleep schedule has been utterly terrible recently, which is not good at all. I find myself up at 2am doing things that either should have been done wayyyy before or could have waited until the next day. It feels bad to wake up at 11am. Because that’s so much of the day just… gone.
But at the same time, I feel like I work really well at night. And all the silly internet people on my phone tend to be online at those times too (hello silly orchard people who are reading this)!
Raaahhhh. But back in the day, the daytime I mean, I’ve been working on my final college project! It’s a really cool one that I’m calling ‘Alienated’.
At the moment, I think it’ll be some sort of ARG but I’m not entirely sure if that’ll work. I suppose we’ll see!
I cannot wait to share that- I’m also going to be sharing a survey too to help me with getting some research grades. Awesome sauce.
And that’s really all that I… Have to say? Yep. I’m probably gonna stay awake for just a little bit more and then just disappear™ (early starts are the WORST).
Hover over me/tap on me for a message. You matter more than you think. Make sure to take good care of yourself and to check in with someone you care about.
Starting a blog
So, I got a little bit bored, and I decided how better to spend my time than well, to start a blog!
I have no idea what I'll put here or if I'll even use it that much but well, yeah. I may put some things here!!
At the moment, I'm just working on this website trying to get some stuff on here. Work kinda stopped for a bit whilst I was doing lots of other things including my university application!
I ended up with five university offers, one of which was an unconditional! It feels genuinely awesome to know that no matter what, I'll be able to study cybersec in uni.
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